day 11 - a deceased person i wish i could talk to

billy joe kelly, i think about you all the time and how different it would be if you were here. and how happy everyone else would be. i honestly know i wouldnt have a boyfriend, it's hard to explain the feelings i had for you. when people talk about you i just cry, i know i should be happy to hear all the good memories. but it's hard. you were the nicest kid, but you were a butthole. i remember you, me and jordan would stay up until like 5 am on the phone all the time. and then you'd beg me to roll with you, and i was too scared, and then i was gonna do it cause you begged me but then i got grounded. i remember isp together and how we just sat there and moaned everyones name and then i got sent to isolation. i remember the last month, then you told me about your pill problem and how you always would overheat because you took too much. and how you told me that i should stop. i miss that so much, i know that if you were here we'd be talking so much shit about everyone at school and then go back to school and be so nice to them. you were one of my bestfriends and you were the best, i hope to see you someday. i love you, kid.